For most of my life, I didn’t think that I would be a parent this early. I had lived my life to the fullest during my no-son-responsibility years. I was only seventeen when I found out that I am pregnant. My boyfriend and I don’t know what to do. We are not married and we knew that we would not build a life as a family.
From the moment that my son was born, I told myself that whatever happens I have to prioritize my son. So now, I have to decide not only for myself but also for my son’s future. What I have decided before I became a mom doesn’t suit me now.
I am not perfect, I admit. I will make mistakes sooner or later.
Being a single mom like me, raising my kid is very challenging yet enjoyable. I have to work hard and at the same time study college because I am only nineteen. But working and studying doesn’t hinder me to effectively parent Elijah. Being single, It doesn’t stop me to think that I can be a wonder mom to my kid. Even though I am still dependent financially to my mom, this doesn’t mean that I cannot do it all by myself. But it is not always easy, I always end up crying and frustrated at times.
I have to decide what to change. What will benefit my son the most. I have to think for his future before thinking of myself. I know someday, when these changes take it’s place no matter how hard the challenges are, I will say to myself that have achieved my goals for my son and myself. That these changes I set are all worth it.
Elijah, is the best thing that has ever happened to my life.