Entering motherhood is not easy. I never knew how hard it is until I became pregnant. During those days I always cry, asking God why is he punishing me. I didn’t know what to do. I am hopeless, feel scared and shy with a big tummy in an early age, but didn’t think about abortion .
Things change the first time I saw Elijah. It was September 1, 2010 around 5:16 am at Baguio General hospital. Everything. Yes. I feel happy and contented for the very first time in my life. I thought I will never be happy like this. I am not alone anymore. I got a son who will protect me from anything, anyone who will hurt me.
The punishment became a blessing. A blessing that made me see that life is worth living. Having a son is really a pain in my wallet but a big happiness in my heart.
Eventhough motherhood is very hard, I will try my best to be Elijah’s mom.